About My Blog.

Welcome! This is "Catatonic Digressions."
Most readers don't understand my blog's title. It's an old inside joke from a forum long gone. I was going to change it, but since it's been "confusing" for so long, I decided to leave it. Don't worry about what it means, the content of the blog is what matters...or not

Unfortunately, my blog isn't what I set out for it to be. A sick woman in Orleans, MA began stalking me in 2007 on Myspace. Since that time, this woman obsessed over me to the point of having the police come to her home and threaten to confiscate her laptop. She is a racist and anti-Semite.I could no longer blog freely, knowing this nutbag was just going to take the photos I'd post and put them on a child exploitation website.

This site is only up for the information it has that others might need to know about. That information is about "Seal Shepherd" aka Michael McDade, Kat McAboy aka Marilyn McAboy and Veronika Hompo, a self-proclaimed Nazi.


I'm a real person. I'm real and I don't pretend to be someone I'm not. After years of putting up with online abuse by manipulative, pathological liars, attention whores or narcissists, I've had it. Don't bother me with pathetic drama. I have no time for these types of people and their need to absorb others' time and attention.

This blog is no longer used. I've retired it for the most part unless something very important comes up.

Please, join Sea Shepherd Conservation Society, and follow them on Twitter and Facebook.

Monday, March 30, 2009

New York Daily Photo: Ray's



Yum. I remember going downtown for the first time — sans parents, with friends — and stopping off at Ray's for pizza. But which Ray's was the real Ray's? Go to New York Daily Photo and read the interesting story about the Ray's written by Brian Dubé.

Oh, and if you've never even had New York pizza, you don't even have a clue what you're missing. Pizza made anywhere else just isn't pizza.

Some pizza places in NYC deliver — to anywhere in the United States ;)
Order Ray's!

See Wikipedia for some additional interesting or fun info, such as:

  • On Seinfeld, in the 1998 episode "The Maid", Kramer becomes lost in Manhattan and calls Jerry for help, leading to the following exchange:
Kramer: I miss home, and I don't even know how to get there.
Jerry: What's around you?
Kramer: I'm lookin' at Ray's Pizza. You know where that is?
Jerry: Is it Famous Ray's?
Kramer: No. It's Original Ray's.
Jerry: Famous Original Ray's?
Kramer: It's just Original, Jerry!

  • The oldest of the current Ray's Pizzas was opened by Ralph (Raffie) Cuomo of Little Italy, Manhattan at 27 Prince Street in 1959 near the country's first pizzeria, Lombardi's. He is the son of Matthew (Joe) Cuomo who was recognized as a made man and street soldier for the Gambino crime family.

Ray's Pizza Wikipedia

Thursday, March 26, 2009

Lollapalooza 2009: Just Shoot Me Now…


…because
A) I can't afford it,
B) I can't take Harry and
C) I can't leave Harry in NY while I go.

Why can't Lollapalooza tour like it did way back when? Why can't it be in New York? ARGH.

August 7-9. It’ll be held at Grant Park in Chicago, Illinois. Thanks, Lolla-people. TOO FAR AWAY!

Normally I'd not give a crap, but this time the lineup is MY lineup. This year's Coachella Festival is not my kind of lineup. Even this year's Ultra Fest isn't enough to make me feel I'm missing out. Lollapalooza is just what I'd want to have here close by, and the reason is the following bands:

  • Tool
  • Jane's Addiction
  • The Beastie Boys

You also get The Killers, Depeche Mode and Lou Reed to name a few.

Add ΝIИ and I'd just have to find a way.

Jane's and Nine Inch Nails are touring, but the chances of getting tickets to Jones Beach are slim to NONE and It's NOT HAPPENING. I've been through this before, and I know I'm just not going to get to go. Pshh. I'd settle for the NIN show in Wantagh. Get me tickets.

Posting Nude Pics on MySpace at 14?!? What Was This Girl Thinking?

(This is NOT the girl, but this teen's pic was taken off her profile and is now all over the internet.)

Before I became pregnant, I was reporting a dozen or so underage profiles a week; sometimes I reported up to 20. Some of the children were only 7 or 8 years old. One girl was 11 and was posing provocatively at the bottom of a staircase in many pictures on her public profile which was set to 18, and after I had her deleted (which was after I contacted HER MOTHER, a friend on her list!) her mother told me off! The young girl was wearing a very short skirt, butt to the camera, and her head was a bit tilted down so her eyes were seductive. There were adult men on her friend's list! Pedophiles! Parents sometimes don't want to accept the fact that their child is A CHILD and doesn't belong online half nude and flirting to a camera. Luckily for the little girl, her father found and read the messages, and wrote to me, thanking me for reporting his daughter's profile and explaining that he and his wife were new to the internet and his wife was extremely ignorant to who would see those pictures, and what could happen. He'd even said that then men were not relatives or family friends. I reported the men as well. There's thousands more out there like that little girl. Boys, too. Now and then I still report very young children, when I spot them join one of my groups and I check their profiles. I don't understand how parents are unaware of what kids in grade school are doing online.

Back to this 14 year old.

OMG, what on earth was this girl thinking? I'm actually wondering what her parents are thinking. She's FOURTEEN. She posted herself naked to THE WORLD. Some parents would be aghast. Some parents would would act like it's "no big deal" that she takes the pictures, but say MySpace isn't where she should have put them. Hmm.




NJ Girl, 14, Arrested After Posting Nude Pics

Teen Faces Child Pornography Charges After Posting Nearly 30 Sexually Explicit Images Of Herself On MySpace



A 14-year-old New Jersey girl has been accused of child pornography after posting nearly 30 explicit nude pictures of herself on MySpace.com -- charges that could force her to register as a sex offender if convicted.

The case comes as prosecutors nationwide pursue child pornography cases resulting from kids sending nude photos to one another over cell phones and e-mail.

MySpace would not comment on the New Jersey investigation, but the company has a team that reviews its network for inappropriate images. The National Center for Missing and Exploited Children tipped off a state task force, which alerted the Passaic County Sheriff's Office.

The office investigated for a month and discovered the Clifton resident had posted the "very explicit" photos of herself, sheriff's spokesman Bill Maer said Thursday.

"We consider this case a wake-up call to parents," Maer said. The girl posted the photos because "she wanted her boyfriend to see them," he said.

It is not a crime to view the photos, Maer said, but it is illegal to download them. Authorities are looking at additional arrests but have no plans to charge people who accidentally viewed the photographs, such as any of friends who have access to the girl's profile.

Investigators are looking at individuals who "knowingly" committed a crime, he said, declining to comment further because the case is still being investigated.

The teen, whose name has not been released because of her age, was arrested and charged with possession of child pornography and distribution of child pornography. She was released to her mother's custody.

If convicted of the distribution charge, the girl would be forced to register with the state as a sex offender, said state Attorney General Anne Milgram. The sex offender law calls for, among other things, restrictions on how close such felons can come to schools.

In northeastern Pennsylvania, a prosecutor recently threatened to file child porn charges against three teenage girls who authorities say took racy cell-phone pictures that ended up on classmates' cell phones.

The American Civil Liberties Union has asked a federal judge to block the filing charges, saying that the teens didn't consent to the picture's distribution and that the image is not pornography, in any event.

"Teenagers need to know that there are serious consequences for sharing risquDe or compromising pictures of themselves, but trying to teach that lesson with heavy artillery like child-pornography charges -- which can have lifelong consequences -- is uncalled for. Who does it protect?" said Deborah Jacobs, executive director of the New Jersey ACLU.

Called "sexting" when it's done by cell phone, teenagers' habit of sending sexually suggestive photos of themselves and others to one another is a nationwide problem that has confounded parents, school administrators and law enforcers.

Prosecutors in states including Pennsylvania, Connecticut, North Dakota, Ohio, Utah, Vermont, Virginia and Wisconsin have tried to put a stop to it by charging teens who send and receive the pictures.

Milgram, the attorney general, could not recall another case in New Jersey in which a youth was charged with child porn for posting photos of themselves to a social networking site. She cautioned parents to get on those sites and monitor what their kids are talking about and posting.

"Unfortunately, youth don't have the same judgment as adults, and often, adults don't have the same technical savvy as the youth."

Twitter

(© 2009 The Associated Press. All Rights Reserved. This material may not be published, broadcast, rewritten, or redistributed.)

Sorry, but the AP can tell me to take it down. Bring on the C&D, I'll remove it. This is something EVERY PARENT needs to read and then speak to their kid(s) about. YEESH.

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

My Little Handsome Guy

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(A little awkward; I'm holding the camera out in front of us, but I think he's too adorable to not share. Yes, I'm a little biased… maybe!)

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Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Post Surgery Update

Tomorrow will be two weeks since my father's brain surgery to relieve the swelling caused by the necrotized tumor. He is no longer in the hospital; he was moved to a rehabilitation facility nearby, and we all visit daily. He's progressing as expected. Since he was taken off the steroids, he's very tired, but he has to do physical therapy a few times a day to regain his strength he lost in the many weeks prior to the surgery. Once he can use his arm and legs again, he can come back home.

Lung Cancer Alliance
Tax Status: 501(c)(3)
Website: http://www.lungcanceralliance.org
Address: 888 16th Street, N.W.
Suite 150
Washington, DC 20006
  • LUNG CANCER ... kills more people than breast, prostate, colon, liver, kidney, and melanoma cancers... combined.
  • LUNG CANCER ... is the leading cause of cancer death in the United States among every ethnic group... 1 in every 3 cancer deaths.
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  • LUNG CANCER ... Kills nearly twice as many women as breast cancer.


Lung Cancer Alliance is the only national non-profit organization dedicated solely to patient support and advocacy for people living with lung cancer and those at risk for the disease.

Lung Cancer Information Line: 800-298-2436

NIN — Everyday Is Exactly The Same, and Other Happy Songs



Trent Reznor. Born the same day as me. Same age (Maybe, shall not say on my blog, but very well could be, indeed.) Moody. I wonder if it's a Taurus thing, a trait of creative people. He's brilliant, talented and damn good looking.

My friend Keith introduced me to "Pretty Hate Machine" in '89 and said, "This is going to be the next biggest thing, just you see, listen to this, it's going to blow your mind."

It did.

nin.com [the official nine inch nails website] is the official website.





2009 tour links:
facebook
MySpace

nin iCal calendar







Nine Inch Nails: Head Like A Hole (1990)



Nine Inch Nails: Gave Up (1992)



Nine Inch Nails: Wish (1992)



Nine Inch Nails: March Of The Pigs (1994)



Nine Inch Nails: Everyday is Exactly the Same (Video with Footage from Rehearsal 2005)



Nine Inch Nails: Something I Can Never Have (1989)


(During Woodstock '94 and Self Destruct, Trent ended the song with "I can never have... and you will never, ever, ever understand... how I feel.")









Trent and Marilyn Manson, live in NY. I was right there, off to the side of the stage… and loving every minute — no, no, no — second of it. Marilyn showed up to do "Starfuckers."








               

              

Monday, March 23, 2009

Where's My Pony! And Other Toys from Childhood…


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Okay, so I don't know whatever happened to my pony, or the little blue-haired finger puppet I had in this picture, but I do have the Dapper Dan doll sitting up in the closet in my son's room! When my friend had her daughter some 20+ years ago, I gave it to her. When I had my son, she sent it back to me. He's a bit worn, but he still has all his buttons… almost ;) Dapper Dan is really my brothers, but I don't think he minds at all. 

Maybe that little blue-haired finger puppet is why I've always liked to put a dash of color in my hair… or maybe that's my artistic side. 

Now I want to find my Flatsy doll and possibly the records to go with the Rockflower dolls I actually do still have saved, along with a bunch of Dawn dolls. I wonder how many people out there have also saved many of their dolls and some toys or gadgets from their childhood?


©2009, Suzanne Hayes / spookie. All Rights Reserved
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I had this Panasonic AM radio in red. Actually, I do still have it, but I have no idea where I stashed it away. I used to walk around wearing it on my wrist like a big bangle bracelet.


Sunday, March 22, 2009

Ofra Haza — Im Nin 'Alu

Ofra Haza (עפרה חזה) Im Nin'Alu



Thank you Ofra
Ofra Haza - 11.19.1957 - 02.23.2000

Friday, March 20, 2009

spookie, the CAT.

This is the queen of the castle.











…and this was every cat BUT spookie in 2007. Tiggler is in this picture. Tiggler was my feral turned mushball lap cat.



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Thursday, March 19, 2009

CBS 2 HD News NY Remembers Christian the Lion


I saw this on the news last night, and though I've seen it dozens of times, I had to repost it for those who might not have ever seen or heard of Christian the lion.


CBS 2 HD Remembers: The Lion They Loved

Nearly 40 Years After Remarkable Reunion Between Men And Beast, Former Owners Take Stroll Down Memory Lane


NEW YORK (CBS) ― 
Tens of millions of people have seen the amazing YouTube video of "Christian" the lion, and the emotional reunion with the men who raised him as a cub.

Nearly 40 years later, his former owners remembered their extraordinary experience, and shared their memories with CBS 2 HD.

The video quite simply is astounding. After a year of living in the wild, a young lion named Christian was to be reunited with the only family he knew as a cub. Their reunion was cautious at first, but in only seconds, any apprehension gave way to pure joy.

"It's just wonderful to remember the love we all had for each other, that he loved us and we loved him," John Rendell said.

"It exceeded our expectations without a doubt. We knew he'd remember us. We knew we weren't in any danger. We knew he'd still love us."

It's been nearly four decades since that emotional encounter, but for Rendall and Anthony "Ace" Bourke that moment, and their time raising Christian, is one they will certainly never forget.

"He was such a beautiful lion that everyone we met fell in love with him," Rendall said. "We fell in love with him the moment we saw him."

That moment was in 1969 at Harrods department store in London, where Rendall and Bourke bought Christian for today's U.S. equivalent of about $3,000, and raised him in their flat.

"His routine became so normal that we all just blended in with our lives and it became normality," Bourke said. "It was the spirit of the times, somehow."

But it was inevitable that in a matter of months Christian would outgrow his surroundings.

"Ace and I thought, we've got to give him a chance. It would be a betrayal to send him to a zoo," Rendall said.

Instead, they made arrangements to have him rehabilitated in the wild. It was a dangerous undertaking, because of Christian's domestic upbringing, but, happily, he demonstrated an innate understanding of life in the wild.

"He immediately knew how to fan around in the right direction under cover with his scent downwind," Bourke said. "It was extraordinary. His instincts were not impaired in any way."

And so they left him to his new home, returning a year later to this now-infamous reunion.

And in a newly released video, a year later, the pair met Christian again, as a larger, even more self-assured king of the jungle.

"We were very lucky. We had a wonderful time to live with an animal as wonderful as Christian. It was unique," Rendall said.

"We feel very blessed and very blessed to have this chance to talk about him and make people aware of conservation issues," Bourke added.

Conservation has become a focal point for the pair, as they work to educate, and help preserve natural habitats for animals in the wild.

They have a new book out about their experience with Christian, and will be answering questions at the American Museum of Natural History on Thursday night.

To watch their new video, click here.


(© MMIX, CBS Broadcasting Inc. All Rights Reserved.)




Christian's story. Full ending and original soundtrack to the film "Christian, The Lion at World's End". Directed by Bill Travers, Commentary by Virgina McKenna, founders of the Born Free Foundation.



In 1969 a young Australian, John Rendall and his friend Ace Bourke, bought a small lion cub from Harrods pet department, which was then legal. 'Christian' was kept in the basement of a furniture shop on the Kings Road in Chelsea, the heart of the swinging sixties. Loved by all, the affectionate cub ate in a local restaurant, played in a nearby graveyard, but was growing fast...

A chance encounter with Bill Travers and Virginia McKenna led to a new life for Christian. He came to live in a huge enclosure and to sleep in a caravan at their Surrey home. Then in 1971 he was flown to Kenya, his ancestral home, and returned to the wild by lion-man George Adamson. Nine months later in 1972, John and Ace returned to Kora in Kenya. This clip is of their reunion at that time.

It was an emotional reunion: "He ran towards us, threw himself onto us, knocked us over and hugged us, with his paws on our shoulders."

John Rendall

See http://www.bornfree.org.uk for more about this story.

Christian the Lion is distributed by Beckmann Visual Publishing WCBS

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Boombox Radio is Back… Sort Of.

This news is two months late because I keep forgetting to post it, and I've had a lot going on here with my father's health (and the surgery.) Finally, Sirius XM has listened to it's listeners. I'm going to just take the information from Liquid Todd's blog and repost it here, because it's easier than writing something from scratch.



Zeros+Ones is now Boombox Radio
Friday, January 23, 2009

Sirius XM is making some moves to try and bring back some Boombox programming. They haven’t given me a whole channel to work with...yet...but there have been some positive developments.

My
Zeros+Ones show on Alt Nation is now Boombox Radio. I was afraid they were just going to change the name without adjusting the format but - at least for the first couple shows - I’ve been able to play whatever I think is best. So I’m spinning a few breaks rekkids as well at the remix stuff. Fun! Saturday nights, 10pm-Mid on Alt Nation (Sirius 21 | XM 47). Replay at 2am on Wednesday nights. Playlists on the Lists&Links page.

Also
DJ Icey has returned to the Sirius XM airwaves with Automatic Static on Area (Sirius 38 | XM 80). It airs Fridays at noon EST. Glad to see Icey banging the breaks on Sirius again.

I’m working on more Boombox-related programming as I type. Or I will when I finish typing. Of course, as always, I’ll keep you all posted.

Love,
Liquid

Friday, March 13, 2009

CuteLittlePiggies!

Aren't pigs just adorable?


This blogger has JUST PIGGIES! Her blog says,
"This is my fun little blog, where I'll bring you pics of only the cutest little piggies. Here you'll also find links to the best videos and piggies in the news."
That's it! Need a smile, go visit Cute Little Piggies.



While on the topic of pigs… this is reported with permission.

Hormel worker caught abusing
mother pig and piglets on tape!!!

CLICK the LINK BELOW!

http://www.metacafe.com/watch/1755841/hormel_supplier_caught_abusing_mother_pigs_and_piglets/?cd=44fe83cba1a99834b71e76a0141270c900500002346868usa

Indeed, this is what the brutal pork industry is all about! It is happening at every factory pig farm and slaughter house in the country; there is no such thing as humane slaughter, organic meat, or killing with compassion. Pigs are animals with a higher intelligence than dogs. And how horrified are we about those in other countries who treat dogs and cats this way? These animals are aware of their surroundings; they are sentient beings who experience emotional as well as physical pain and suffering. The abuse and cruelty to which they are subjected is unconscionable, perverse and outrageous!!! And we call ourselves civilized?

Many of the people who work in slaughterhouses and on factory farms are sadistic perverts who consider these animals as unfeeling, degraded objects of scorn; in fact it is clear that many who work in such places actually enjoy the opportunity to brutalize, to maim, to torture... and you can be sure, these individuals do not leave those tendencies at the slaughter house when they go home.

Our language is filled with expressions denoting the view we have of these intelligent animals: "dirty pig"...which denotes sexual as well as physical filth; "to pig put", "eat like a pig" (an entirely human quality, expressing gross over-indulgence, and so forth and so on), all of which project human failings/"sins" (gluttony) on these unfortunate animals. For just a few moments of gustatory pleasure, we are complicit in and willing to subject other living beings to pure Hell and to take away their precious lives. Can you live with that thought? Are you able to eat the flesh of another living being that has endured such suffering, with a clear conscience? Every time you swallow that mouthful of flesh you are ingesting the Karma and all the sadness and misery that the animal has endured. The animals' flesh is moreover, filled with hormones, anti-biotics, and drugs to prevent illness and promote growth...and that's what the consumer is eating. Any wonder why cancers, heart disease and other "life-style" illnesses are on the increase, in spite of all the medical advances?

But for the sake of some little mouthful of flesh, we deprive a soul of the sun and light, and of that portion of life and time it had been born into the world to enjoy.
~Plutarch, C.A.D. 46-C


And so, it is not just Hormel that we need to boycott, but the entire industry, one that systematically engages in the abuse of intelligent, living, feeling beings and also destroys our environment by contributing to greenhouse gasses and polluting our waters and air with the waste from this hideous cruelty.

There are acceptable vegan substitutes for every pork and other animal product on the market...and no reason whatsoever that could ever justify the hideous and inhumane treatment of these unfortunate creatures. Remember, if you don't eat it, they won't kill it!
PLEASE everyone, boycott Hormel and every other product resulting from suffering and slaughter!!!!

http://www.metacafe.com/watch/1755841/hormel_supplier_caught_abusing_mother_pigs_and_piglets/?cd=44fe83cba1a99834b71e76a0141270c900500002346868usa

Thursday, March 12, 2009

My Father Had Brain Surgery — Success! NO CANCER in the Brain.

Yesterday, my father had the MRI to map his brain for the surgery. We knew the day before that brain surgery was almost the only option left, and if the MRI didn't show any roadblocks, the surgery would happen not too long after. All of us were on pins and needles, except my Dad. He knew this was his only option. He wanted the surgery.

Since last Thursday, we've all been unbelievably stressed to the maximum because of his condition. His lung cancer tumor has been shrinking, and so has the liver tumor. Both are smaller by 40%. We'd all just found out a few days earlier. He was more active and feeling better, and in fact, he was doing tax returns since it's "tax season." Suddenly, he became unable to lift his left arm, use the left hand or walk without the help of my brother. He was dizzy and tired. Even he knew that something was wrong. His hand swelled up and so did his left foot and calf. He was so tired, he could barely keep his eyes open.

By Thursday, he was almost immobilized.  All weekend, someone had to help with every move he made to make sure he didn't fall or trip. By Sunday night, it was BAD, and we were all very worried. We made a list of the observations we all noticed over the days — especially just on Sunday — and called the oncologist's on-call doctor. We were told to call 911 and get him admitted ASAP. Of course my Dad didn't want to go; he wanted to go to sleep. Earlier in the night, though, he knew something was wrong, and he told me. He said, "My brain is muddy." He told me he couldn't find words. He knew something was happening. We made the right decision in getting him into the hospital. There was swelling on the brain.

The brain cancer is gone. It was gone. CyberKnife had worked. The necrotized tumor caused pressure and swelling, and had to be removed. It was the size of a fingernail bed. My father was awake remarkably fast. The neurosurgeon said everything went amazingly well and that the right choice was made. We spoke to my Dad last night around 10pm, after they moved him from the surgical unit to the recovery ICU unit where visitation is allowed. He spoke with us and said he felt horrible. I told the nurse, and she said all brain surgery patients say that; it's the headache. Then he asked for some ice chips and said, "When can I go home?"

Today he's doing even better. The doctors all say it's remarkable. He is recovering better and faster than some people half his age.

Thank God for this wonderful blessing.

My son Harry and my Dad, summer 2008.

Mom and Dad on a trip, late winter 2008.


My Dad and his best friend since childhood, in my parents yard.

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Wednesday, March 11, 2009

To “The Improper Adoptee”

To Marilyn-The Improper Adoptee:
Cease and Desist the Libel and Cruelty you display towards me. I've asked you for so many months, and through two winters now.
I said PLEASE STOP.

When my father was diagnosed with cancer, I asked you to end this sick game of yours, and I asked you privately. You didn't post my "please…" because it was too honest and it came from a place you don't have within you.

STOP ABUSING ME VIA THE INTERNET, STOP BULLYING ME AND STOP STEALING MY PHOTOS I POST THAT ARE SPECIFICALLY LABELED AS NOT FOR USE BY ANYONE ELSE, ESPECIALLY YOU.
STOP YOUR CYBERPSYCHO BEHAVIOR TOWARDS ME.

My father is dying of cancer. You've made a mockery of him.

My son is being exploited on your other blog, by you. You've posted not just libel, but sexually deviant content about me and my family, content that is defamatory and untrue besides disgusting. I ask that you remove it or I am going to do all I can to have you pay for these crimes — the abuse, harassment and emotional duress you've put me through for so long.

I asked you to stop long ago.
I asked in a cordial manner. You ignored me. I then reached out to your friends, but you claim I harassed them. I have my email to them, and I did not harass anybody. If you were really being harassed, you'd have asked me to stop, and you know what? You never did. That's because you are not the victim, but the victimizer.

I sent you a Cease and Desist message directly to your blog. You ignored it, and immediately posted another crude and libelous blog about me. I sent another, demanding you stop your cyberbullying and libel, and that you remove the images you stole from me and used without my permission (a form of stalking). You responded by making fun of my father and his battle with cancer, saying he didn't have cancer, but that you wished I did.

I told you I wanted no part of your insane online game of abuse, but you didn't and still don't want to stop. You're cruel and heartless.

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

A Cyberbully Called The Improper Adoptee: Epic FAIL! Marilyn McNutter, You Are a Tool.

A Cyberbully Called The Improper Adoptee: Epic FAIL! Marilyn McNutter, You Are a Tool.

Just click that link above to see the abusive and cruel online harassment that Marilyn McAboy — The Improper Adoptee — is still dishing out towards me and my family even though I asked her to please stop. She's only gotten worse since I told her a few days ago that my father's condition worsened, and I was serious about her leaving me alone and ceasing all abuse towards me and my family. There is something very wrong with this woman; no one in their right mind would keep this up, which only shows everybody that she is not in her right mind at all. Bestiality, child exploitation, mocking people with cancer… what kind of human being even goes to such a low level? Marilyn does.





TUESDAY, MARCH 10, 2009


Epic FAIL! Marilyn McNutter, You Are a Tool.

The Improper Adoptee has a niché for failing miserably at pretending to be other people and originality. She is also the biggest sore loser in a game that only she wanted to — and wants — to play. It's pathetic. Marilyn didn't have to go and create a blog of perverse and cruel content, but she did. Why? No one knows but her. She did this after I posted my comment to her in which I'd asked her to please stop, to just end this blog war she wants to continue and that I don't want any part of. She is a sadist, a sexual deviant, a pervert, a child exploiting sicko and an anti-Semitic, volatile woman who is ready to combust. Let's not forget that she loathes Christians while at it, specifically Catholics. Maybe she has such a deep hatred for me because I am not adopted, I am Jewish by Jewish law, I am Catholic by Christian law, I have a very close-knit family and we live next door to each other, I had a son at the age of 40, I went to college for 4 years and then continued for another 3 years, I am a self-taught computer geek and can do many things she can only wish she could, I have owned two cars that were my dream cars, and I own my own home. These are things that wouldn't bother me or other people, but probably annoy her to no end. Why else make such a disgusting and perverted blog? Everything she's posted on it is against Blogger's TOS and Usage, and parts are actually against the law. Federal law.

Marilyn McAboy was asked to STOP HARASSING ME all this week. Instead, she's escalated with such intensity, she can't even think for herself. She's copied images and text from MySpace posts (from other users) and from my blog to post to her blog, her blog she claims is made by two men. Riiiiight. We all buy that.
“The Improper Adoptee” is so mentally ill that she can't stop; she cannot control herself at all. Asking her to leave me alone, to back off, to just cut the crap doesn't even register in her mind. She doesn't even care. She loves every minute of abusing people. All of her blog entries are proof.
Her blog entry for Monday, March 9, 2009 is a total epic fail. Not only is it so childish, it's deranged, perverse and sick — as usual. She is well aware that what she has posted is illegal and also against Blogger's TOS, but she seems to not care. She surely doesn't care that she's infringed on copyrights. I've reported her to Yahoo, Inc. and I'm reporting her to the DMCA. I've also reported her to the FBI. Thats no joke either. Will she care? Does he care? I doubt it, because she already knows all of this information; she read it herself on STOP Crulety Against Animals, the MySpace group I moderate.

This is my blog entry from December 2008.

THURSDAY, DECEMBER 11, 2008

Signs The Improper Adoptee is a Serial Bully


  • is a convincing, practiced liar and when called to account, will make up anything spontaneously to fit their needs at that moment
  • excels at deception and should never be underestimated in their capacity to deceive
  • relies on mimicry, repetition and regurgitation to convince others that he or she is both a "normal" human being and a tough dynamic manager, as in extolling the virtues of the latest management fads and pouring forth the accompanying jargon
  • is unusually skilled in being able to anticipate what people want to hear and then saying it plausibly
  • cannot be trusted or relied upon
  • fails to fulfill commitments
  • is emotionally retarded with an arrested level of emotional development; while language and intellect may appear to be that of an adult, the bully displays the emotional age of a five-year-old (e.g. "meanydoodles")
  • in a relationship, is incapable of initiating or sustaining intimacy
  • holds deep prejudices (eg against the opposite gender, people of a different sexual orientation, other cultures and religious beliefs, foreigners, etc - prejudiced people are unvaryingly unimaginative) but goes to great lengths to keep this prejudicial aspect of their personality secret
  • is self-opinionated and displays arrogance, audacity, a superior sense of entitlement and sense of invulnerability and untouchability
  • is a control freak and has a compulsive need to control everyone and everything you say, do, think and believe; for example, will launch an immediate personal attack attempting to restrict what you are permitted to say if you start talking knowledgeably about psychopathic personality or antisocial personality disorder in their presence - but aggressively maintains the right to talk (usually unknowledgeably) about anything they choose; serial bullies despise anyone who enables others to see through their deception and their mask of sanity
  • flits from topic to topic so that you come away feeling you've never had a proper conversation
  • refuses to be specific and never gives a straight answer
  • is evasive and has a Houdini-like ability to escape accountability
  • undermines and destroys anyone who the bully perceives to be an adversary, a potential threat, or who can see through the bully's mask
  • gains gratification from denying people what they are entitled to
    is highly manipulative, especially of people's perceptions and emotions (eg guilt)
  • poisons peoples' minds by manipulating their perceptions
  • often has an overwhelming, unhealthy and narcissistic attention-seeking need to portray themselves as a wonderful, kind, caring and compassionate person, in contrast to their behavior and treatment of others; the bully sees nothing wrong with their behavior and chooses to remain oblivious to the discrepancy between how they like to be seen and how they are seen by others
  • is spiritually dead although may loudly profess some religious belief or affiliation
  • is greedy, selfish, a parasite and an emotional vampire
  • is insensitive, often callously indifferent to the needs of others, and especially when others are experiencing difficulty (vulnerability is a major stimulant to the serial bully)
  • is unable to maintain confidentiality, often breaching it with misrepresentation, distortion and fabrication (e.g. "Okay........I’ll keep your emails private...........ROTFLMAO!!!!!!!")
  • uses gossip, back-stabbing or spreads rumours to undermine, discredit and isolate
  • is insecure and sees others as a threat; the threat seems to comprise a fear of exposure of inadequacy, and often borders on paranoia; the individual may have a paranoid personality
  • is untrustworthy and unable to trust others - this partly explains the compulsion for excessive monitoring
  • the serial bully seems to live in a bubble of the present and when challenged will spontaneously make things up; the bully genuinely seems to believe the fabrication; from a psychiatric viewpoint this could be called confabulation; from a moral viewpoint, it's called lying
  • is devious and manipulative (especially female bullies)
  • is often like a child who has never grown up
  • often has a hatred of a sector of society, eg ethnic minorities, disabled people, etc
  • often has a hatred of certain professional groups, eg psychologists, psychiatrists, social workers, counsellors, therapists

Embittered by an abusive upbringing, seething with resentment, irritated by others' failure to fulfill his or her superior sense of entitlement, and fuelled by anger resulting from rejection, the serial bully displays an obsessive, compulsive and self-gratifying urge to displace their uncontrolled aggression onto others whilst exhibiting an apparent lack of insight into their behavior and its effect on people around them. Jealousy and envy motivate the bully to identify a competent and popular individual who is then controlled and subjugated through projection of the bully's own inadequacy and incompetence. When the target asserts their right not to be bullied, a paranoid fear of exposure compels the bully to perceive that person as a threat and hence neutralise and dispose of them as quickly as possible. Once a person has been eliminated there's an interval of between 2 days and 2 weeks before the bully chooses another target and the cycle starts again.

MONDAY, MARCH 9, 2009

annie wilkes is spookie's idol

[PHOTO REMOVED]

spookie loves her ass! spookie wants to be just like this fuckin control freak! spookie's main goal in life is ownin everybody's ass. she wants absolute power. she's a fuckin
fruitcake. spookie is a fuckin spoiled brat 2 who thinks she can bully everybody in 2 gettin what she wants. she uses threats an badgering to accomplish this goal. fuck.she tells some peeps she'll call a social worker on em an lie an tell em they're abusin their kids if they don't side w/ her. spookie will do anythin to make people do what she wants. she don't care who she hurts. she likes to hurt nice people. it makes her cum in her pants. along with fuckin cats! hurtin innocents is her religion! she'll get violent with ya to, so watch out. she'd prob. kill anybody who gets in her way! fuckin sociopath. me an my buds wrote an outline about spookie's sick personality. read it an then print it out. refer to this list to protect urself from this schizophrenic cunt at all times.
signs spookie is a serial bully
1.is a convincing, practiced liar and when called to account, will make up anything spontaneously to fit their needs at that moment
excels at deception and should never be underestimated in their capacity to deceive (spookie is one of the the biggest bullshit artists in the world! she should have a big L sewn on all her clothes!)
2.relies on mimicry, repetition and regurgitation to convince others that he or she is both a "normal" human being and a tough dynamic manager, as in extolling the virtues of the latest management fads and pouring forth the accompanying jargon (look at how much spookie says the same shit over an over again! she fuckin goes all over the internet lyin about ia and her friends. this has been goin on for over a year! some dr. needs to give this bitch a surgical lobotomy!)
3.is unusually skilled in being able to anticipate what people want to hear and then saying it plausibly
4.cannot be trusted or relied upon
5.fails to fulfill commitments (cept for her dates with cats)
6.is emotionally retarded with an arrested level of emotional development; while language and intellect may appear to be that of an adult, the bully displays the emotional age of a five-year-old (42 year olds shouldn't dye their hair purple. ya think?)
7.in a relationship, is incapable of initiating or sustaining intimacy (this is why the loser who got spookie knocked up won't marry her. he only sees his devil kid cause spookie's father will drag his ass through the courts. harry's dad hates spookie's guts.)
8.holds deep prejudices (eg against the opposite gender, people of a different sexual orientation, other cultures and religious beliefs, foreigners, etc - prejudiced people are unvaryingly unimaginative) but goes to great lengths to keep this prejudicial aspect of their personality secret (spookie called ia's friend amy a dyke. then she goes an says she supports gay rights an cuts down ia cause she doesn't an calls her a racist.)
9.is self-opinionated and displays arrogance, audacity, a superior sense of entitlement and sense of invulnerability and untouchability (this describes spookie to a tee. the creep.)
10.is a control freak and has a compulsive need to control everyone and everything you say, do, think and believe; for example, will launch an immediate personal attack attempting to restrict what you are permitted to say if you start talking knowledgeably about psychopathic personality or antisocial personality disorder in their presence - but aggressively maintains the right to talk (usually unknowledgeably) about anything they choose; serial bullies despise anyone who enables others to see through their deception and their mask of sanity (this is why spookie says ia is crazy an ain't psychic.)
11.flits from topic to topic so that you come away feeling you've never had a proper conversation
12.refuses to be specific and never gives a straight answer
is evasive and has a Houdini-like ability to escape accountability (spookie is a big time hacker!)
13.undermines and destroys anyone who the bully perceives to be an adversary, a potential threat, or who can see through the bully's mask (this is what spookie did to all of ia's friends)
14.gains gratification from denying people what they are entitled to
is highly manipulative, especially of people's perceptions and emotions
15.poisons peoples' minds by manipulating their perceptions
16.often has an overwhelming, unhealthy and narcissistic attention-seeking need to portray themselves as a wonderful, kind, caring and compassionate person, in contrast to their behavior and treatment of others; the bully sees nothing wrong with their behavior and chooses to remain oblivious to the discrepancy between how they like to be seen and how they are seen by others
17.is greedy, selfish, a parasite and an emotional vampire
is insensitive, often callously indifferent to the needs of others, and especially when others are experiencing difficulty (vulnerability is a major stimulant to the serial bully) (spookie makes fun of all the adoptees who have a lota pain)
18.is unable to maintain confidentiality, often breaching it with misrepresentation, distortion and fabrication (spookie put ia's cell phone number on her blog)
uses gossip, back-stabbing or spreads rumours to undermine, discredit and isolate (spookie says ia an her friends are pyschotic when everyone knows she 'sthe one crazy in the coconut!)
19.is insecure and sees others as a threat; the threat seems to comprise a fear of exposure of inadequacy, and often borders on paranoia; the individual may have a paranoid personality (spookie can't handle bein on ia's list cause she's paraniod she'll get committed again.)
20.is untrustworthy and unable to trust others - this partly explains the compulsion for excessive monitoring (spookie an that raine chick got in a fight when they were supposed to be allies. this happened cause spookie got paranoid and started slightin her. raine told spookie she thought she was tryin to pick a fight with her. spookie fights with everyone sooner or later.)
21.the serial bully seems to live in a bubble of the present and when challenged will spontaneously make things up; the bully genuinely seems to believe the fabrication; from a psychiatric viewpoint this could be called confabulation; from a moral viewpoint, it's called lying
22.is devious and manipulative (fuck yah!)
23.is often like a child who has never grown up (spookie still sticks out her tongue at people)
24.often has a hatred of a sector of society, eg ethnic minorities, disabled people, etc (spookie hates anyone on the right. spookie is a leftist vampire biatch.)

(Marilyn, you really need to stop this lying. See a therapist about compulsive lying, and all your other illnesses, please please pretty please? We'll even put a cherry on top, just for you.)
"Um, if you can’t afford a $15 vaccine get rid of your fucking cat and give it to someone who can take care of it properly and get it the medical care it needs. Christ.

People are such idiots.


You really hate yourself don’t you? Sad.... sad too, that you take it out on everyone Chainsaw......"

Here’s my Mittens the Cat account. You know, the supposed troll. The moderator of two of the largest Pets and Animals groups on Myspace, but that’s called a troll to StepFord Child. (THE IMPROPER ADOPTEE, the same woman posting BESTIALITY on her alt. blogger site) :::sigh:::



Here’s the bulletin she sent out about me in screenshot form. Oh, and her messages, but this is only one of them...why be redundant. There’s also her message to me before she turned on me, right below it.





NowNO, I did NOT tell her she shouldn’t use her one profile. I suggested she think about making another profile, so she’d have one for adoptee rights and adoption issues, and one for animal rights and animal activism. This way when she posts in the volatile animal groups, people won’t attack her, and I told her that. I’ll post the messages between us.



PLEASE note that before she turned on me, she liked me.
My very first message to her is below, and her first reply is above it, below.



----------------- Original Message -----------------

From: Stepford Child

Date: Feb 16, 2008 10:40 AM


Well, I will be honest-I hadn’t read all the pages before I replyed , there are just too many and I can’t concentrate that long, lol. I have however, had it with Chainsaw-she is an evil horrible girl who is constantly picking on everyone and not just in this group-I wish she would be banned from myspace, hell actually the whole internet, lol. It makes me mad that groups like yours are started to help animals and all people do is sit there and nit pick about how people write and how they spell-I am sick of the soap opera and the fighting in part because the animal matters just get ignored. I didn’t read what Cody did or the other post you mentioned about the girl threatening suicide-so I guess I wasn’t aware of all going on, but I stuck up for Cody anyway because you know these troll losers they push people to act horrible and lose it-that is what they want and Chainsaw is one of them-I still am glad I stuck up for this kid because he did nothing wrong posting that thread and I hope he reads what I wrote because he deserves to have his morale upped-I don’t want him to stop being a good person and stop fighting for the animals and the bottom line is he did NOTHING to deserve those bitches from picking on him and I don’t want him to lose faith-I’m sick of seeing nice people get ripped apart on the interent-I realize I have a dual myspace and I have thought myself about using this one just for adoption stuff and making a separate animal one and am palnning on doing that-but at the same time I like educating people on the oppression and predjudice that adoption really is because like things concerning animals the wrong attitudes the Adoption field pushes needs to be changed. It is a billon dollar industry that has destroyed millons of people’s lives and people need to know the truth. Anyway, I am glad you are deleteing people, I wish you would ban Chainsaw..... she is a pain in the ass..... I’m glad you like the info I post and it is too bad this group has become a troll haven because I love that you made it for the animals, you are a good person too and you don’t deserve this crap in your group-take care and I won’t tell anyone about this e-mail, Have a great day

Love

Step

----------------- Original Message -----------------

From: spookie

Date: Feb 16, 2008 10:22 AM


The "girl" who said she couldn’t afford to pay $15 for a vaccine was really a teenage boy who stole a girl’s profile, a troll. The profile was deleted the next day. The same "girl" also posted she was going to commit suicide because of myspace, and other nonsense comments, all obviously untrue due to their inconsistency.

BTW, I also stuck up for the child named Cody. Cody then lost his cool and posted his cousins phone number and begged members to call it. That was a bad idea.

No offense, but you have very good info to post in SCAA and it gets ignored because the people only see your profile and ignore your wealth of info. Maybe you could create another profile and keep it private, using it to post in groups that are volatile?
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Another unwarranted reply to a post I made that didn’t deserve this lashing out I received. This is all due to my asking her feelings about an adopted friend. A question, people! A question sent her after me like a crazed bull(y). And again, these sites, the acronyms I don’t even know. What is the NCFA? What does BSE mean? I honestly have no idea. Anne didn’t tell me about these things. Her adoption didn’t work this way. When Anne decided to give her son for adoption, it was open, and none of this crazy stuff was involved. I helped her by being there for her, her friend, during her pregnancy. She WANTED to do this, and no one talked her into it. I wanted her to keep the baby, and somehow work things out with her boyfriend, but Anne wasn’t ready to
settle down with him, and she wasn’t ready to settle down with anyone. I don’t think she was ready to be a mother. She felt that she was lucky, she had and has a terrific family, and she had a bad one that had given her life. She felt in her heart that her baby had a loving real mother and father, and would have a loving adoptive mother and father. That’s all I know about her and her baby.



StepFordChild wrote:
"Oh you skank loser spookie. You are a hacker, a liar and a 4 year old SPOILED BRAT. I never wrote what you made up and posted in here. YOU are the one who started this WHOLE thing because you made up a mean spirited story and tried to indicate to me that all birth mothers are CRACK WHORES, which is an immature, and horrific LIE, PLUS IT IS SLANDER!-GO READ THE BOOK, EVERYONE READ THE BOOK, WHICH IS THE TRUTH ABOUT ADOPTION AND HOW BABIES ARE TAKEN AGAINST A GOOD MOTHER’S WILL, MANIPULATED AWAY, AND SOLD BY ADOPTION AGENCIES AND THEN THEY LIE AND PUT AN INFERTILE WOMAN’S NAME ON OUR BIRTH CERTIFICATES SAYING SHE GAVE BIRTH TO US WHEN SHE DID NOT AND DO NOT GIVE US THE REAL BC WITH OUR MOMS NAMES ON THEM-BABIES IN AMERICA ARE SOLD FOR UP TO 100 GRAND EACH-THE BOOK IS CALLED "THE GIRLS THAT WENT AWAY"

GO READ IT-AMERICA HAS A LONG EVIL HISTORY OF ABUSE AND BIGOTRY-LOOK AT SLAVERY!

SOME GOOD WEBSITES THAT SPOOKIE DOESN’T WANT ANYONE TO KNOW ABOUT THAT TELL THE TRUTH ABOUT ADOPTION & OPEN ADOPTION TOO ARE:

abolishadoption.com

exiledmothers.com

keepyourbaby.com

These links will take you to other links-forget what you saw in JUNO, it is all a LIE-a group of selfish adoptive parents that oppress the slaves, I mean kids they adopt called the NCFA DO NOT want us to know our own people, or who we look like, OR OUR OWN PARENTS NAMES! or the fact that most babies are coerosed away from single mothers against their will by social workers, WHEN WE WANTED TO BE WITH THEM-THE NCFA ARE THE ONES THAT GET BS MOVIES LIKE JUNO MADE, TO BRAINSWASH GIRLS TO GIVE AWAY THEIR OWN FLESH AND BLOOD TO INFERTILE STRANGERS WHO BUY THEM AND THEN CON THE POOR CHILD THAT THEY ARE THEIRS WHICH IS ABUSE WHILE NOT LETTING THE CHILD EVEN KNOW THEIR MOMS NAME.

Spookie is like those people-she is a people abuser and she hates me because I expose and hate the American adoption system because it abused me and countless others.

She hates me because she wrote me a very mean email MEANT TO HURT ME and then I did NOT reply and she handles it like a 4th grade BULLY-going all around into groups insulting me, calling me names-it is sad she says she is 42 and acts like the mean kids we all knew in juniour high school, but this is how Pro-Adoption people are-skank losers!!

And that is harrassing, intimidating, manipulating hacker, spammer, phisher

spookie, ika: mittens the cat IS

Stay way from her if you care about yourself.

She is beyond dangerous and needs SERIOUS MENTAL HEATH HELP.

Burn in hell spookie."


I told Stepford that Anne’s mother was on drugs, not crack, when Anne was a baby. When Anne found her mother later in life, she knew she was a crack addict. Other family members knew for a while.

This is FACT: Crack cocaine is a highly addictive and powerful stimulant that is derived from powdered cocaine using a simple conversion process. Crack emerged as a drug of abuse in the mid-1980s. It is abused because it produces an immediate high and because it is easy and inexpensive to produce--rendering it readily available and affordable.

Stepford told me I was a liar about crack, but I am in NY and in 15 minutes, I can be at one of the oldest crackhouses from the early 80’s. I know crack was here.

"The crack epidemic refers to a six year period between 1984 and 1990 in the United States during which there was a huge surge in the use of crack cocaine in major cities, and crack-houses all over the USA. Fallout from the crack epidemic included a huge surge in addiction, homelessness, murder, theft, robbery, and long-term imprisonment. The first effects of the epidemic started in the early 1980s, but the DEA officially classifies the time of the epidemic starting in 1984 and ending in 1990, in what can be considered to be the height of the epidemic.

The epidemic affected all major American cities. Among the cities most severely impacted were Chicago, Washington D.C., Los Angeles, Baltimore, Detroit, New York, and Miami. According to New York Senator Charles Schumer, "Twenty years ago, crack was headed east across the United States like a Mack truck out of control, and it slammed New York hard because we just didn’t see the warning signs.""

Anne’s Mother:

"In the 1970s and 80’s, the drug became particularly popular in the disco culture as cocaine usage was very common and popular in many discos such as Studio 54." So, while I said to Stepford that her mother already had addiction problems, which included alcohol and other substances (of which cocaine became one), she didn’t know what else her mother used before cocaine hit NY.



I’ll finish this tomorrow, after culling my emails.



BTW, remember! Improper Adoptee said—

Stay way from her if you care about yourself.

She is beyond dangerous and needs SERIOUS MENTAL HEATH HELP.

Burn in hell spookie.



That’s serious stuff! Hide! Quick!

I hope I find my DIE BITCH! post she made to me.[/QUOTE]


Improper Adoptee,

I hope you have room to store all of that FAIL.

Of course it's not The Improper Adoptee making that bestiality site. IA and "those two dudes" both just happen to not blog on weekends. Coincidence? Ha ha! Gee, Do the two guys and Marilyn all have to check in to the local metal facility on weekends, as required by a court order? (I mean Marilyn and her two male personalities, eh-hem) Let's not play stupid here. No one is that dumb to think that she isn't behind both blogs.

Marilyn McAboy, otherwise known as “The Improper Adoptee” is a sexual deviant who is licking her lips perversely as she writes about bestiality, laughing hysterical as she exploits a little boy who is only 26 months old (yes, that's right, she's taking part in child exploitation by posting blogs about a toddler that is not hers), and feeling pleasure in every way possible as she mocks and puts down my father, a man dying from lung cancer that has spread to the brain, a terrific Dad who not only worked hard to put all of us through college, he always spent all his free time with all his children — at the park, the beach, the pool and the yard, teaching us to ride bikes, to skate, to body surf waves, to climb trees… and this is what Marilyn McAboy chooses to make fun of. CANCER. “The Improper Adoptee” is one thing in a nutshell — HATRED. Forget about the libel and all the defamatory shit she posts about me all the time, rambling like a moron, on and on. The worst has been her mocking of cancer patients and exploiting toddlers. She's a sick, perverse, delirious entity, and karma is going to bite her head off and spit it down her neck.





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