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Most, if not all readers don't understand my blog's title. It's an old inside joke from a forum long gone. I was going to change it, but since it's been "confusing" for so long, I decided to leave it. Don't worry about what it means, the content of the blog is what is important.

Unfortunately, my blog isn't what I set out for it to be. A disturbed and manic online stalker and cyberbully has made it impossible for me to post about family, my son, life in my part of New York...so I stopped (for the most part), and I mostly reblog and repost what I feel is important, necessary or close to my heart. As for the stalking sociopath, she can go to hell for harassing me and my family since mid-2008. You can't scare me offline with a few lame threats and dozens of pages of defamation, abuse, depravity and libel. I'm bitchy like that. ;)
(Anyone who knows me knows I'm not actually a bitch, but let's allow this psychopath to think I'm a bitch to her blackened heart's content—it seems to make her feel she has some sort of control over me…and it does not.)

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Thursday, March 10, 2011

Michael, I've decided you are most definitely DELUDED.

Michael, I've decided you are most definitely DELUDED. A 297.1 fits you quite well. Others do, too, so I'm just going to call you a psychotic with personality disorders.

Add star de·lude Verb   /diˈlo͞od/
  • deludes 3rd person singular present;   deluded past tense;   deluded past participle;   deludingpresent participle
  • Impose a misleading belief upon (someone); deceive; fool
    • too many theorists have deluded the public
    • the poor deluded creature

McDade, you use the word "colluded far too much in your fake "cease and desist" blog entries. I realize you're attempting to make yourself appear intelligent, but it's not working—especially when you COLLIDED here and there, too. Ha ha.


  [kuh-lood]  Show IPA
–verb (used without object), -lud·ed, -lud·ing.
to act together through a secret understanding, especiallywith evil or harmful intent.
to conspire in a fraud.
1515–25;  (< Middle French ) < Latin collūdere  to play together,equivalent to col- col-1  + lūdere  to play

col·lud·er, noun
pre·col·lude, verb (used without object), -lud·ed, -lud·ing.

Legal Dictionary

Main Entry: col·lude 
Pronunciation: k&-'lüd 
Function: intransitive verb 
Inflected Forms: col·lud·ed col·lud·ing 
 to agree or cooperate secretly for a fraudulent or otherwise illegal purpose
Merriam-Webster's Dictionary of Law, © 1996 Merriam-Webster, Inc. 
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From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
Collusion is an agreement, usually secretive, which occurs between two or more persons to deceive, mislead, or defraud others of legal rights.




Improper secret agreement between two or more entities, to defraud or deprive others of their property or rightfulshare, or to otherwise indulge in a forbidden, illegal, or illegitimate activity.

Michael, you're a nutter. Seriously Michael, get professional mental help! I'm not joking around, Michael. You're a seriously disturbed, paranoid, manic and manipulative control freak. You're dangerous to others, online and in real life. Get thee to a shrink!

There's NO "colluded" activity going on, Michael. You're delusional. DELUDED. You have created these "collusions" in your head, to help convince yourself that you're this helpless victim; this nice guy who just wants to save seals, and notes publicly that he's NOT a nonprofit and gets no payment or monetary help from his awesomely awesome seal-saving work (which included sitting behind a crappy PC typing up fake documents and claiming to have Hells Angels at his beck and call). Yet you go on Twitter and other sites and post that you are a non-profit, while at the same time hiding your deluded little profiles, because you really are nothing but a nothing.

I've never had anything to do with any of the sites you mention I've "colluded" with, or "collided" with. Sorry, but you're just wrong and grasping at anything you possibly can, because you know you day is over. Your 15 minutes of fame was only 5, and you lost all your followers sans a few lunatics.  

I'm still waiting for this proof that I claimed I worked with Paul Watson to take you down. Why can't you post proof? What are you afraid of, or hiding? You said I claimed I was HIRED by Captain Watson to "take you down." When? Where? If we never really crossed paths, as you claim by your statement that we were never connected on Facebook, then where did this priceless and totally comical delusion of yours come from? That, McNutbag, is the most deluded of your paranoid mental state. Okay, maybe not. It's a runner up to your "I dated a playboy model" delusion. Have you ever taken a psych course? No one knows if you even finished high school, so I'm asking here and now, have you ever read up on or studied psychology? You  should see a psychologist, because you fit a handful of DSM-IV disorders. (Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders, Fourth Edition (DSM-IV)) 
You display erotomanic and grandiose behavior. 

Delusional disorder is a psychiatric diagnosis denoting a psychotic mental disorder that is characterized by holding one or more non-bizarre delusions[1] in the absence of any other significant psychopathology. Non-bizarre delusions are fixed beliefs that are certainly and definitely false, but that could possibly be plausible, for example, someone who thinks he or she is under police surveillance. For the diagnosis to be made, auditory and visualhallucinations cannot be prominent, though olfactory or tactile hallucinations related to the content of the delusion may be present.[2]
To be diagnosed with delusional disorder, the delusion or delusions cannot be due to the effects of a drugmedication, or general medical condition, and delusional disorder cannot be diagnosed in an individual previously diagnosed with schizophrenia. A person with delusional disorder may be high functioning in daily life and may not exhibit odd or bizarre behavior aside from these delusions. The Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM) defines six subtypes of the disorder characterized as erotomanic (believes that someone famous is in love with him/her), grandiose (believes that he/she is the greatest, strongest, fastest, most intelligent person ever), jealous (believes that the love partner is cheating on him/her), persecutory (believes that someone is following him/her to do some harm in some way), somatic (believes that he/she has a disease or medical condition), and mixed, i.e., having features of more than one subtypes.[2] Delusions also occur as symptoms of many other mental disorders, especially the other psychotic disorders.
The DSM-IV, and psychologists, generally agree that personal beliefs should be evaluated with great respect to complexity of cultural and religious differences since some cultures have widely accepted beliefs that may be considered delusional in other cultures.[3]Specifically, to be a "delusion," a belief must be sustained despite what almost everyone else believes, and not be one ordinarily accepted by other members of the person's culture or subculture (e.g., it is not an article of religious faith).[4] 

Indicators of a delusion

The following can indicate a delusion:[5]
  1. The patient expresses an idea or belief with unusual persistence or force.
  2. That idea appears to exert an undue influence on the patient's life, and the way of life is often altered to an inexplicable extent.
  3. Despite his/her profound conviction, there is often a quality of secretiveness or suspicion when the patient is questioned about it.
  4. The individual tends to be humorless and oversensitive, especially about the belief.
  5. There is a quality of centrality: no matter how unlikely it is that these strange things are happening to him, the patient accepts them relatively unquestioningly.
  6. An attempt to contradict the belief is likely to arouse an inappropriately strong emotional reaction, often with irritability and hostility.
  7. The belief is, at the least, unlikely, and out of keeping with the patient's social, cultural and religious background.
  8. The patient is emotionally over-invested in the idea and it overwhelms other elements of their psyche.
  9. The delusion, if acted out, often leads to behaviors which are abnormal and/or out of character, although perhaps understandable in the light of the delusional beliefs.
Individuals who know the patient observe that the belief and behavior are uncharacteristic and alien.

      Delusional Disorder



      The cause of delusional disorder is not known. Some studies suggest a biological component due to increased prevalence in first degree relatives of individuals with the disorder.


      Non-bizarre delusions including feelings of being followed, poisoned, infected, deceived or conspired against, or loved at a distance. Non-bizarre referred to real life situations which could be true, but are not or are greatly exaggerated. Bizarre delusions, which would rule out this disorder, are those such as believing that your stomach is missing or that aliens are seeking you out to be their leader. Delusional disorder can be subtyped into the following categories: erotomanic, grandiose, jealous, persecutory (most common), somatic, and mixed.


      Medications can be helpful but are often refused due to the nature of the disorder. Some individuals function quite normally, while others may react to their delusion in ways that can greatly disrupt their life.


      Ranges from good to very poor depending on the individual, subtype, and life circumstances.

      Michael McDade,
      Whatever mental disorder you do actually have, the above or something else, possibly APD (Antisocial Personality Disorder, otherwise know as a Sociopath) or NPD (Narcissistic Personality Disorder), you are sick. You show no remorse or care for others, at least not genuine care. You pretend to care, as you do for the seals, but it's a facade to lure people towards you, so you can then use them. You have issues with authority, which is most likely why you are unemployed. It's also why you act out against the attorney for Facebook; he is in charge, and that angers you. He calls the shots, not you. You're not allowed to anymore. No more cyberbullying on Facebook for Michael. You show complete disregard for how other people feel, especially when you wrongly accuse them and send lynch mobs after them without any just cause. Once people realize that they played part in your game and they feel horrible, you try to justify your inability to admit wrongdoing by claiming the person is "sick, trying to commit suicide" or "smoking crack" or "severely psychotic and dangerous." Mostly towards women, you then proclaim, "She was madly in love with me and I turned her down, so that's why..." It's always the same story; the woman was in love with you and you rejected her, so she is "after you" to tarnish your reputation. And what's your excuse for me? Sadly for you, I never fell for your charade and you can't reinforce your accusations towards me with the "love" agenda. (Loved at a distance) 

      I've called you a narcissistic sociopath many times, but this time, I have more confidence that you suffer a disorder of some type, whether it's personality or psychotic. Regardless, you suffer from some mental illness that bolsters your need to feel almost super-human and definitely above the law, that strengthens your delusions of being a leader of thousands of people (your foot soldiers), with many women all over the world madly in love with you. 

      I think your delusional. You think you're normal.

      We all know you're cruel, heartless and have threatened the lives of many people, especially the people of Newfoundland, to which you said you were going to use your "81's" to teach them a lesson, to go to the homes of their families, their children. You hinted of violence. You made it clear you didn't use passive means to get what you wanted. You basically admitted that you planned to use non-conventional tactics to get the sealers to stop. You said your way wasn't "for the weak." Sorry to tell you, but reading your words, from all the email blasts and comments you left behind, you seem dangerous and I think you're a loose cannon. Curiously, all the accusations you make towards "Sunny" are the exact things you planned and were doing; terrorizing Newfoundlanders, gathering information on people via another person, so you could harass them (you requested a young woman to gather information on Sunny, and then you went after him and said you'd destroy his life.) The proof of your intent is clear in the blog entry you posted to him and about him. It's defamatory, untrue and meant to harm him and his family. You admitted to wanting this in a private email which was forwarded to me. It contained your IP in the raw source, so I know it wasn't forged. You mention conspiracy in many sentences, against the handful of your targets. There's a symptom of delusion. You accuse an innocent man of wanting to target Newfoundlanders to harass, but the man doing so it actually you. "Having noted that you have been accused of, caught and banned by Facebook for harassing users, namely the people of Newfoundland, Canada..."finding them" in real life and using information to intimidate them and their families." You posted that as the actions of another man, but I've posted many screenshots in which you are "calling all 81's" and asking for "action," and you don't mean a potluck dinner. I've proven time and time again that you want harm done to people, even if it's collateral damage. You wanted the families of sealers harmed physically, and included their families, their children. You can't deny it because it's all been documented.

      I realize that suggesting you seek help from a professional is futile. People like you don't think anything is wrong with them. Sadly, there's a lot wrong, and you'll just continue to try to prove you are something and someone you're not, and mentally, you'll unravel, trying to harm whoever you can on your way down as you spiral out of control.   

      Get help.


      "You should know the most important thing. Seal Shepherd never tells lies."
      —Michael McDade

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